Unmotivated and sickness

23/05/2024

All feelings are valid

I have had to take an extensive amount of time off from my weight loss journey for a number of reasons that I am yet to open up about. 

I have been trying so hard to keep myself motivated and while i am not able to eat the way i would like i wanted to at least keep moving and doing some activity. This has been extremely hard as I had a period initially where I felt like I should just give up completely, so I lost motivation and have struggled to get it back. 

Then when I felt like i might be starting to get my motivation back i was struck with Hayfever and a cold, so that put me right back to square one and feeling really shit again, so lost motivation. 

I am in a constant battle at the moment and I don't feel like I am going to get on top of it any time soon. 

In my situation I know that all of the above is normal and that I need to allow myself to feel these emotions and ride the wave that I am riding but that is so hard for someone who has always been in control of what is ahead and planned everything along the way. 

I have no control over any of this and need to allow life to take the reins and lead me where it is going to.