Week Three: Emotions

22/01/2024

Week Three has brought a bunch of emotions with lows and highs. This week's blog may read differently as I have tried to write it on the day and as I am feeling the emotions.   

I started off really well on Monday. Hit the gym first thing in the morning and had a good day food wise. Drunk lots of water and the scales were showing a drop on Tuesday morning. 

Tuesday morning was a planned rest day, so no gym in the morning. This meant that I wasn't in a rush to get ready for the day and didn't have as many bags to pack. By 8.30am I was struggling mentally. I felt flat and on the verge of tears. I am not sure why I felt this way. I had a good morning up until that point and then a comment was made that “no one else is upstairs”. This upset me as I was sitting at my desk in the office, so I felt invisible and as if I didn't exist or wasn't important. This triggered the desire to comfort eat, which meant I was working extra hard to resist this urge. Knowing that I am still in the early stage of this journey I know how crucial it is to resist the urge and push through. Once I give into the urge I know that it will take me weeks to get back on track mentally and I do not want to have that set back. I will check in with my feelings again later in the day and see if I am feeling better. 

Wednesday I started the day with a workout at the gym. Was still feeling flat throughout the day but not feeling as down as I was yesterday and needing the comfort of food. Still not feeling 100% myself, so I will continue to watch what I am feeling and note any triggers. 

Thursday was just a normal day at work. And I met with a couple of friends to workout in the afternoon. We played Fitness Uno, which was so much fun and there was so much energy with these ladies that it was hard not to laugh. I was slowly on my way back to a somewhat normal mental space and was feeling good. 

Friday morning was a hard morning as my day job had our monthly toolbox meeting, which involves breakfast. Thankfully I was able to make modifications to the breakfast to make mine fit with my Keto lifestyle. Unfortunately the wraps that i used, while they state that they are Keto friendly and have only 2.5g of Carbs, they contain Dextrose which is a high carb sugar alternative. I am very disappointed at this, but not a lot I could do about it for Friday. The problem I face now is that I had planned to have Ham and Cheese wraps for lunch next week, so I have already purchased more… Will need to find an alternative for that.

Saturday I went for my walk in the morning and then just chilled with the family at home. 

Sunday was Race day, so I got to spend time with my sister and nephews from Tauranga. It was a great day and I was good with my food while I was out. I had one ham, cheese and egg wrap. However, as it was hot and I was tired, we decided to get Chinese for dinner, which while not a planned cheat meal, was a cheat meal for me. 

Overall this week I have only lost 100g, but I have had so many wins in other aspects of this journey that the weight is not that much of a big deal. 

I resisted the urge to comfort eat on Tuesday. I went to the gym three times this week and enjoyed every session. I have still been drinking 2-3 litres of water everyday. 

Bring on week 4. Let's see where this one takes me.